One of the reasons I got into healing was that the past 3-5 years I have suffered from sporadic back pain and sciatica. I have been to the doctor, had x-rays, physical therapy etc. It comes and goes with my stress levels and with other intangible things. And what I've been asking myself for the past few years is what is this trying to tell me? I almost stumbled on the answer a few months ago when I wrote a post on how pain has influenced me. Basically it grounds me in my physical body; I'm fully present and aware of how I feel at that time. But then I left it at that.
About one week ago the pain moved from my lower back to my left shoulder and my neck. I was living on painkillers until a fantastic energy healing meditation with Archangel Raphael on Monday. He's been with me all week, healing me on Monday, helping me channel healing to my homework assignment on Tuesday, and then today we had a class on Raphael. I got really good guidance from him on a personal development level, rather than pure healing.
The first message from Raphael was that I had to go with my spirit and not my ego. I do make an effort to make the right impression and get things right. A few weeks ago I was reading Eckhart Tolle's book, The Power of Now, and he talks about how our sense of self is jeopardized when we link it to being "right" or "perfect" or any of those very competitive adjectives. He told me not to worry about getting things wrong. People won't think less of me and I won't suffer a set backs. Let it slide.
I had already started on this path after reading Tolle, but recent events strengthened my understanding of the concept. Yesterday I went in to "sell" a marketing plan at work, and it got rejected in favor of something classical and more sensible. If I had attached my self-worth to being right, not getting the proposal approved would have demoralised me. But it didn't, because at the end of the day we all make mistakes, and that is how we learn. Lucky for me there were people in the room with more experience, who could point me in a safe direction (consequently, the path of least resistance lol).
The other message I got today really made me happy, the woman that was reading for me told me that she saw me growing wings, that I was opening up and expanding. She also saw me flying up to the highest heights. Then she went on to tell me that I need to be more grounded and to keep my head out of the clouds to get there. I was born and raised on Cloud 9, and will often lose sleep, time and energy because I'm spacing out. I need to be grounded and alert to have traction in my life. This "grounding" message was the same thing that Archangel Raphael told me during the opening meditation.
Raphael told me to let go of my ego and the need to be right, and also to be more present in my everyday life. Being up in the clouds puts a lot of distance between me, my life and my circle of friends, family, etc. True that. One of the things that will help is a new system I found to manage my blog and Facebook page when I'm asleep and working. It's hard to be in two places in one time, and keep track of all of these online sites. So now, when I'm at work, I'm at work. If I'm giving readings they get my full attention, and if I'm writing that's all I'm doing. Multi-tasking is overrated lol, I need to focus! =)
So what does all this have to do with my chronic back pain? I left the class feeling fantastic, my left shoulder is still a little bit stiff but overall I feel much better. And after the big lecture on grounding, I'm also a little bit more focused. I was going about marveling at how great I felt, and a brilliant thought popped into my mind. My back pain went away because I was naturally grounded today.
Not sure if this is the case for everyone, but I have noticed that my back will spasm when I start daydreaming about what I want to accomplish. It's happened once or twice at work, with my book/blog, etc. I am getting the feeling that on-again-off-again back spasms are there to ground me. After all, when you feel a small-medium amount of pain it brings you back to the present, and you're acutely aware of your body and your discomfort. Thing that I wouldn't have paid too much attention to if I was grounded.
So that's my theory, will let you know how it pans out over the next few weeks.
Please Note: All of the energy healing techniques shared on this blog are complementary to medical care, not alternative. Visit a doctor if you have symptoms.
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